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Ardyn "fuck that guy" Millionlastnames ([personal profile] schardynfreude) wrote2020-10-05 05:25 pm

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alcahest: (dead behind the eyes.)

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[personal profile] alcahest 2022-02-09 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[ RING RING DAD WE FUCKED IT UP ]
alcahest: (i was born something,what could i be?)

[personal profile] alcahest 2022-02-09 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Chiron—! [ she says his name the same way that a child would cry out for their father. ] W-where are you right now? Prehnite is looking for everyone, but...!

[ it's easy to hear from her voice that she's crying, but more than that, she sounds shaken. ]
alcahest: (won't let it pass me by again.)

[personal profile] alcahest 2022-02-09 09:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she takes a breath as she's told, but it's the jagged, hitching breath of someone who can't put a stop to their sobbing, can't bring themselves under control. ]

Gerda— Gerda took our offer, but she... there are things she didn't remember. When she became an Executor, she remembered, and she ran away, and it's— awful...!
alcahest: (with your eyes)

[personal profile] alcahest 2022-02-09 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Rei is with me, but— Sword, Veil, and Medic are chasing Gerda, and Prehnite went ahead to find everyone else—

[ she stops running now, and instead tries to catch her breath. she'll look for somewhere to wait for him in a moment. right now, she cradles the phone and clings to the comfort of Chiron's voice. ]

Chiron... She was a Revenant, once.

[ it's not said in disgust, or condemnation. it's a deep, sympathetic sadness. ]
alcahest: (just one something.)

[personal profile] alcahest 2022-02-10 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know... I don't know if it worked, or if something else happened to her. She ran as soon as Rei made the deal with her, but that... definitely could have just been the memories.

... The things she remembered, they... [ she's silent for a moment, struggling. ] ... If it were me, I— I don't know if I could live with...
alcahest: (love,hunt me down.)

[personal profile] alcahest 2022-02-10 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ ... ahhh. that's what it is. the things she felt in those memories were horrifying, yes, and she experienced them as if they were her own, but they aren't hers. and she does know that much, in a detached way that doesn't diminish the horror of it. the real problem is that — she saw those things, felt all of that, and there isn't anything she can do about it.

it isn't hers to deal with. it's Gerda's, alone, and Mona can't see how she could possibly even help her. it's so much more terrible because she's felt it, but all she can do is let go of it and move on, all the while knowing what it is that Gerda has to confront.

Mona's next breath is a shuddering exhale, but — she seems to be calming down, somewhat. ]


... You're right. I'm sorry. It was just— [ she audibly retches. ] —I'm sorry.